Brae. A gay woman's tale!

I have been accused of being very “black and white” in the way I live my life and in the decisions I make. This is quite true.

I do not handle “gray” areas of my life well, uncertainty and indecision make me uncomfortable… and I lose my peace of mind.

I am a decisive, get things done type of person and, although not all my decisions, are right, they are always decisions I take responsibility for.

My judgement on many things, had mostly held me in good stead and I have never really doubted myself… but over the last few months things have changed.

Things have happened in my life that I never seen coming, and decisions and choices I have made have not turned out well.

Doubt and confusion are now clouding my thoughts… and my own self confidence is really low.

I am now over thinking and over reacting to things that in the past would have brought a decisive response from me.

It feels a bit like being in no mans land, I can’t seem to move forward and there is no going back.

All of this is taking away my peace of mind and my sleep and I am floundering.

I know I am a strong woman, I know I survived many battles, but this feeling of not being able to judge or decide on things is really draining and I am not dealing with it well at all.

Even when I have been through some dark times, my ability to “just do it” has seen me through… but this ability came from my confidence in my decisions… and, right now, I simply do not trust myself.

Life as a couple isn’t always a bed of roses because in the long run relationships can be a lot of hard work. Every relationship goes through testing times and rough patches. Even if you are in a love relationship you will be tested about how committed you are, you will be tested for your trustworthiness and sometimes you will tested for the efforts you put in to keep your partner happy. The biggest challenge, however, is to make your relationship stand the test of time. The mantra for making your relationship ace this test of time is to never miss any opportunity to make your relationship stronger on a daily basis. Sometimes all it takes is very little effort and all you have to do is to have great communication to make your partner feel more loved, more heard, and more accepted

Aarti Khurana