I have had comments regarding my blog and how it resonates with other peoples situation and feelings.
I am lucky enough to have found a wonderful blog called My Words! and today a post that made me sit up and go “wow” this is my situation right now. You can read more of My Words! here or from the link on this page.
On the blog today there is a poem by Mary Oliver that brought a wee tear to my eye. As many of you know I’m considering making a major life change. I am planning to move (for part of the year) to Lesbos. Although nothing has been organised yet, I have major considerations to take into question, my business, my dog, my friends but overall, what is best for me. I feel lost at the moment, unchallenged, flatlining, bored, maybe, for once, the only thing I should consider, is me.
The Journey
One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice —
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
“Mend my life!”
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do —
determined to save
the only life you could save.
— by Mary Oliver
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