Exploding gun

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There have been a few lies knocking around about me … again .. *raising eyes and tutting* … fortunately this time, instead of being shocked, I laughed … and so has everyone else that I told about “the lies” …  this time the lies will not hurt me as really they aren’t all that unexpected.

It seems that this time the bullet that was fired towards me has stuck in the chamber … which will cause the gun to explode in someone’s face ….  and sadly, this is of someone’s own making …  who loaded and fired all by herself ….

 

The biggest question out of all is this is why??   … I have no friggin idea!   – embarrassment, drama, pity .. what??

I am 52 years old .. I have had enough drama and lies in my life to do me a lifetime .. if you need to lie, then go ahead, feel free.. but please do NOT use me in your lies to justify whatever the hell you feel you need to justify!!

I was just going to do nothing about it .. but I am a stickler for honesty .. I have no time in my life for lies or liars … I do not want to be involved in your lies … can you understand that .. just stop…. take a deep breath .. tell the truth … it is a hell of a lot easier than trying to remember the lies that you tell and what is so bad about the truth?    Nothing .. not a damn thing.

 

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A reflection of you …

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ImageThey say that your dog’s behaviour and character is a reflection of you ..

I have the sweetest, most good natured dog … who takes no shit from other dogs …

I certainly don’t take shit … not sure Im the sweetest or that good natured though LOL

Contentment

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I do not think I understood the meaning of contentment when I was younger.   There was always something to aim for, people to see or a woman to conquer!

These days things are very different, maybe I have experienced enough good AND bad times in my life to understand it .. or maybe I have just grown weary of the drama and the arguments, I don’t know but right now I am contented… I am happy, relaxed, peaceful and enjoying myself.

As I look back and remember what was important to me when I was younger, success, money, love .. I realise that these still hold true but in a very different way.

Success is now being happy with my life, money is having enough to get me from one pay day to another but able to not worry too much, love.. well, love is all about learning to love yourself, the good and the bad.

I can’t say I “practice” contentment .. or I looked for it, it just sort of happened.

I have achieved and gained lots in my life.  I have also lost everything I worked all my life for and had to start again.. and I discovered the actual starting again was much less than the worry about having to do it..   It gave me a different perspective and although I do, from time to time, lose my peace and my contentment, I know it is lurking out there waiting for me.  Sometimes I just have to wait for it to return.

Our chains

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No-one in this world is perfect.   No-one in this world is always right.

Truth is much the same and usually found somewhere between the two sides of every argument,

The advantage of truth (or our truth as we see it!) is that it unchains us … it helps us to accept and move on.  No matter how hard the truth is .. it is better than trying to fool others or even worse, ourselves;

By accepting the truth, no matter how hard to accept, leaves us free, fresh and with nothing to hide.

The disadvantages of deceiving ourselves and others are the chains that it brings on us ..  if you cheat a partner and your friends know .. how can you then let these people meet?

If you cheat a partner in the first place you are building a relationship built on sand,  Every storm, every tremor, every person walking past will bring uncertainty and danger.

That is not being free.

That is being in chains.

 

The truth always comes out .. and we should remember that.

The chains that bind us are always the chains of our own making … 

 

Saying nothing ….

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Sometimes the best thing to say is nothing, some people do not deserve your words.

It is all making sense to me now …

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Once upon a time …

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once upon a time

We all write our own story.

We punctuate, we highlight, we dictate.

We make mistakes that we try to overwrite but sometimes we have to erase because the word’s don’t fit or are misunderstood.

In the end it is just a story, a fairy tale that never really existed.

We all choose to write our own ending.

The end.

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