Brae. A gay woman's tale!

I have never been one for “blending in” … not sure why, just how I am.   I am more comfortable when I lead my own life, make my own decisions and choose what I want to do.   Sometimes this has clashed with my previous choices in life, my work, my relationships and with choices that I made because I felt it what was expected of me.

That all changed a few years ago now… a really low time in my life made me really look inwards and I realised that I worried too much about what other people thought about me, or wanted from me… and I realised I wasn’t happy at all.

My life has changed completely since then, I have a new career that I love, a new woman in my life, that I also love and I have found the peace that I always knew I wanted.

There have been times when my wee happy boat has been rocked .. mainly by the actions or comments of others, and even though it does still sting .. I am now in a place where I don’t care that much for the opinions of others who judge me for who I am or who I am sleeping with, friends with, or who do not agree with my opinions… (which rightly or wrongly I do tend to voice!).

I find it hard to understand why anyone would want to bitch or hold a grudge against me because I am happy in my life and just like to do “my own thing” .. but they do … I guess someone always will.

People seem to see those of us who like to stand alone as a threat .. and that is a fault in their make up not mine.   I have no control over that but I hope that one day they too can find peace in the life they are living and maybe then they will realise that trying to blend in is probably the easiest way of losing your own peace.

Be you .. stand tall … stop letting grievances that you hold with your own life stop you from realising that there are just some people who live their life their way, not as part of a pack.

Until then, I will continue to do my thing .. my way, with a happy wee smile on my face.   I wish you peace.

Some photos from the wee trip that Cath and I recently took up north.   She is a piece of me, and the peace of me.

Sometimes life just takes over …but a lot has been happening… so this is my catch up in 10 points!

1. I have been very, very busy with work both funerals and weddings!
2. I have also been very busy with Cath although diary syncronisation is difficult at times! – I even ended up driving to hers the other day for a breakfast date … because it was the only time we could see each other!
3. My cat Bo has still not come home … It is well over a month now and I am not confident of ever seeing her again
4. Brae has hurt her leg yet again! … there is a definite weakness there .. she has also just turned 13 … but she is happy enough, if a little limpy and has breath from the depths of hell!
5. I have had a wee holiday with my folks, a week in Adfern near Oban … wonderful scenery and the best week of weather in Scotland this year!
6. I have another wee holiday coming up next week .. just a couple of days in Glencoe and Seil Island .. it will be lovely to spend some quality time with Cath, we just seem to be ships in the night (or morning!) at the moment!
7. We have booked a wee holiday to Malta for February … after taking ages deciding where to go but even though it is only a week we have booked the best hotel we could find!  …. and it looks fabulous!
8. My diet has been blown out the window after my holiday last week … but back on track again … it is our aim to lose another 2 stone each by February ….
9. I have had horrible problems with my laptop(s) … my favourite one is currently sick and being looked at (for the second time in a week!) … mainly due to an update by my virus checker that then decided Windows 10 was evil!
10. Jilly (the other cat) has completely changed character since Bo has gone … she has started hunting, started wanting cuddles and has a definite ‘tude about her … it is actually a mixed blessing … I miss Bo, but I like the new Jilly very much!

That is about it … boring really .. so some photos to make up for it!