The truth is never easy to face up to. Especially when it involves looking inwards.
I have been lied to many times in my life. Most of the time I have known it but chose to ignore it.
I do not mind the truth, even if it hurts, I can deal with that. What I cannot deal with is lies that are used by others to gain sympathy or pity .. or to simply get their own way.
I have often been left in total confusion with lies .. you never quite know what is the truth .. and what is said to hurt .. but you lose something then .. you lose the trust you have in someone and that is a very difficult thing to get back.
At times I have been made to feel like a dirty secret, a bit of “rough” … and I am certainly none of those.
I have taken time out to look inside, to find out if I was the monster, the destroyer I was painted out to be … and the answer is now clear. No I am not.
I am not perfect, hell, no-one is, but I am open and honest, sometimes to a fault.. and sometimes that is used against me.
Will I change… nope.. no feckin chance!! … I am happy with me and my life. It is a pity that others are not, but that is for them to work on, not me.
Brae. A gay woman's tale! 