We all do something stupid at times .. at the most inappropriate times.

Setting up a new business from home is a tough call .. you have to earn to live .. you have to work unsociable hours and weekends and sacrifice your social life in a BIG way in order to reach where you are aiming for.

On Friday I picked up a deposit for a wedding ceremony I am taking in March … £100 crisp notes in an envelope… and somehow I think I have flung the lot in my fire … I have hunted high and low but there is no sign of the envelope and with a sinking heart I have to admit that I think I have burnt it.

I announced this today on Facebook .. to point out my stupidity … what I didnt expect was for 3 people (non of whom I have actually met in real life) offer to send me money.     I was touched beyond words with their kindness but I will not take their money, I am not desperate and it is not a matter of eating or not … it just means I will have to curtail my shenanigans for a few weeks.

However, these people got me thinking … about kindness and about people.

I am by nature a kind person .. I know that .. it is a great strength of mine .. and a great weakness.   I know through my life I have had people who have realised this about me and used me .. I also know there are people who have been kinder to me than I can ever repay.

The act of kindness cannot be measure in money terms .. it is measure by the spirit in which it is given or offered and I have never given anything that I did not want to give, although I do realise that sometimes I have felt “obligated” but that says more about the people who have made me feel that way than it does about me.

At this time in my life I have less money than I have ever had.  I have to carefully plan each week to make sure that the money I have lasts until more money comes in yet in a strange way it has given me a sense of freedom and I know now that kindness is not in the gifts you can give but the attention and the care that you can give to someone.

As the old saying goes .. Human kindness costs nothing.