Brae. A gay woman's tale!

just home after a long day that hasn’t helped my back at all… I can’t believe I was so stupid in trying to weed but my back felt much better… now it’s killing me again! Sometimes I am my own worst enemy!

I think I may look into acupuncture… just to see if that makes a difference.

I should be writing but have had to come to lie down to see if I can stretch my muscles out. Winge winge moan moan Fuckity Fuck.

After all the hot weather we have been having, I thought I would treat wee Sprout to a paddling pool.

Does she paddle? Does she heck! But she and her best buddy Duffy now have a mammoth drinking bowl….

Life flings many hurdle in our way … sometimes they feel more like 10 foot brick walls … but unless we try to get over them we will always be stuck in the same place.

I recently took a deep breath and took a leap of faith … and found it was easier and nicer than I expected… and just like the butterfly who flaps it’s wings in a forest … the knock on effects have been huge… and very unexpected!

No longer do I feel worthless and unwanted … no longer do I hanker after the person I thought I knew … no longer does the hurt and pain I had drag me down.

Now I have a twinkle in my eye … a wee spring in my step … and a new smile just waiting to appear on my face …

Here is to the hurdles that teach us all about life!

It looks like we are in for some rough weather this weekend… heavy rain and thunderstorms are forecast. I really don’t think it is worth going away in Alice Alice if it is going to be that bad… so I have shuffled my diary and I am going to write all Saturday and have organised a family visit for Sunday!

The weather looks better towards the middle of next week so I might manage a night away on Tuesday before AA goes in to have a solar panel put on!

I really jiggered my back yesterday.  My fault, I was too cocky in what I thought I could do.

My back is an ongoing annoyance that really frustrates me at times but recently it has been much better, thanks to CBD Oil that I have been taking … and I know that yesterday I thought I could just go out there and pull up weeds without a care … jeez, was I wrong!

I didn’t get any further than weed killing before I had to stop and I ended up going to bed at 9pm just  so I could lie flat, dosed up on medication and tried to get comfortable … it didn’t really work and I am a bit grumpy and still sore this morning… my muscle seems to stuck in a spasm and it is causing a bit of sciatica too.  It is perhaps best if no-one crosses my path today!

However,  on the bright side, I have just won £73 on the lottery … so perhaps I will be able to raise a smile when I am out on three visits today!

My day was not as I expected … first of all my back didn’t hold up as well as I hoped it would .. I did manage to weedkill everything … but by that time I was nearly on my hands and knees!… I have had to arrange for my wee pal Willie to come along on a weekly basis to cut my grass and weed for me.  This garden is a bit big for me to handle, especially with a back that loves to give me jip!

But worse than that, my mum had another wee turn today, the second in just over two weeks … luckily my brother was with her at the time … and thankfully, this time she was sitting down, so didn’t collapse on a heap on the floor and bang her head off the fridge!

I went down and sat with her for a while to allow my brother to go to his work and waited with her until my sister came home … but by the time I left she had managed a cup of tea and was chatting away.

I have told her to go to the doctors … I am convinced that the high blood pressure tablets she is on are causing this .. her blood pressure is normal and I don’t think she should be on them … but I am no medical expert … she did agree to go and see the doctor, but it was almost too easy … so I am not sure if she was just palming me off!  (she is a stubborn auld bugger!).

But amidst all of the palaver that I hadn’t planned … I also had an unexpected phone call from a new friend that brought a smile to my face.

Life cannot be planned … you just have to roll with it!