Brae. A gay woman's tale!

It is my last day on holiday before I head home tomorrow. I wasn’t too sure of this site at Jedwater when I first arrived… but for 2 days I have been the only tourer on site and have spent a lot of time speaking to the people who have statics here… I was even invited up for a coffee and home made baking by a lovely couple who fell in love with Sprout.

I originally planned on taking 2 weeks holiday.. something I haven’t done in 20 odd years and travel down to Cornwall with Cath. Although I had been to Cornwall many times, Cath had never been and I was looking forward to showing her the sites.

As things turned out, this was not to be… so I decided to just take a week off and travel around closer to home.

All in all it’s been great. Although I do still regret that I lost Cath, I have found “the old me” that I am quite happy with.

I have laughed lots, drunk lots and seen some beautiful things. I have crossed hurdles, that were mountains in my mind and I have firmly planted peace back in my heart and mind… do I still miss Cath?… well… yes I do, but I realise I miss the Cath I thought I knew, not the Cath she really is… but, she does have every right to live life the way she wants. It is just not a lifestyle that fits with me… and mine does not fit with her.

I have said before that my life ahead is a blank page… and it is one that already has a notation or two in the margin!

I will continue to write the story of my life as it brings me more surprises and laughter…. but today is a day for chilling… I’m staying on site and catching up with my new Latch Rug addiction!

Too many realise this too late.

On my way back from Hawick today I was stuck in a traffic jam… turns out it was because of a horse drawn gypsy caravan! Took ages to get past because of the winding roads, but it was rather lovely to see!

I didn’t get a chance to take a photo since I was driving… but thought I would google it… turns out it a holiday caravan you can hire!!

Not that I fancy being in charge of a horse… I can’t even control Sprout!

My new hobby…. started with a rainbow rug for Sprout… had to watch 5 year old on YouTube to learn how to do it LOL

I’ve been up and away since early this morning… lovely drive around The Jedburgh countryside and then up to Hawick for shopping.

Somewhere along my route I’ve lost my water cap… no surprise really… I’ve had problems with it from the start!

It was rather hot, too hot for Sprout… so I’ve come back to the site. Attempted to get the millions of dead flies off Alice Alice with my new squeegee mop but only partly successful… but at last I can see out of the windscreen again!

But the highlight was when I went for a quick pee in Alice Alice… I didn’t close the door and Sprout followed me in… she tried to jump on my lap… and managed to hit the shower tap… I don’t know who got the biggest fright when we got a soaking!

Alice Alice has turned out to be a bigger benefit in my life than I hoped for.

This little holiday has put me firmly back into the life I loved ( even if I did throw a wee wobbly yesterday when everything conspired against me).

It has been a journey of rediscovery, in more ways than one and a realisation that all the hurt of recent months was perhaps for the best.

No matter how much you love someone, it has to be love on an equal basis… and two people who are meant to be together will always manage to find a way.

For me, right now, I know a relationship and commitment are far from my mind. I will take my fun when I find it.

I am really not sure if I will trust again… I was badly fooled this time around, not by lies I was told… but by what was omitted… and I now have no faith in my own judgement.

Saying that, it would be nice to meet someone who is honest and who is happy with their life, who doesn’t have to feel “needed” but appreciates the importance of being wanted and the peace that brings.

I know I can’t be the only one feeling like this… so perhaps on my future journeys we will bump into each other and my faith in womankind will be restored!

Well… the “well stocked shop for all your essentials” is not open until Friday… and Sprout just took off with her lead tangled around my wind out awning leg and snapped the plastic connector… have had to wind it back in for now and hope I can buy a spare… or I will have to buy a new awning! I guess something had to be shitty during my break but I’m really angry with Sprout. I could see she had tangled her lead round the leg and I told her to wait… she ignored me! I feel like just driving home.