Today I have been sorting through some of my “stuff” that has been in boxes in the attic for many years.

I have smiled happily at old stuffed teddies (one that is the same age as me!). Smirked and laughed out loud at some of the photos,  and having some really nice thoughts about my past and my friends in those photos.

I then came across a card that I have kept since a friend sent to me on the 25th of August 1999.

The card had me in tears.  During the time that this was sent to me I was going through probably the lowest point in my life after a very painful break up.  I felt stupid, used and worthless.   I think I went through a bout of depression during this time, I’m not sure but I do know I felt very, very low.

A quote from the card reads

“I thought I’d write a wee private note to you .. nothing kinky mind!

I want you to know that despite everything that’s happened you’ve survived, as you always will.  You are probably the bravest, most generous, trusting woman I have ever met and that’s saying something.

Above all else, please remember you are beautiful the way you are and we love you dearly.

London is a phonecall away CJ but you are always in our thoughts… especially your boobies!

Love and my full respect”

The memories of that time are  now a distant memory,  I do remember it hurt me, but in a way I’m glad it happened, it taught me that I am tougher than I thought I was .. and the lessons I learned at that time helped me greatly when I went through a very tough patch in my business life a few years later.

What it also has taught me is that friendship, above all, is the one thing I really treasure.

Marina (who wrote the card) has not always had an easy time, I have tried to be there for her and I hope that in some way I have managed to pay back the debt of friendship that I owe to her.   She truly is one of most caring people I know, I treasure her friendship.  No .. that’s not enough.  I love her friendship.

Since she sent me that card we have both been through a couple of relationships, we have listened to each other, laughed, cried, worried and got very drunk together.. We are still friends and I hope we always will be.

Marina, if you read this, thank you.. you are truly one of very few people I trust completely and I know you will always be there for me. I want you to know that I will always have your back covered… and I have a special quote, just for you;

“If I had one gift that I could give you, my friend, it would be the ability to see yourself as others see you, because only then would you know how extremely special you are.”
~B.A. Billingsly~