Today I am person I am comfortable with and actually like! I’m not perfect, far from it, but I like me.
Over the years I have learned a lot about love, life and myself and through all this time I have had some very low and very high points.
I watch with bemusement relationships (on line and off line) that blossom, are all consuming and then burn themselves out in a dramatic way. I have done this myself and learned lessons from them (sometimes you have to make the same mistake more than once to learn!) .
Now I am at a point in my life where what I want is more important to me than what someone else wants, that sounds selfish I know .. but in reality the only person who can make me happy is myself. I do not want to be needed, I want to be wanted and I want the same from any future relationship.
Not all lesbians “get this” – they want the whole living together, shared life thing .. well not me .. Ive been there (more than once!) and now I have a different way of looking at things.
My views will not be shared by everyone but I have found that many of the women around my age understand my point of view, the one’s who don’t tend to be needy, which is NOT what I want at all. Maybe I’m a wee bit cynical, maybe I will have a different point of view completely in 6 months time.. who knows.. the future has yet to unfold!
Brae. A gay woman's tale! 