I have made many errors in my life, but today I have fucked up big style.  

I am embarrassed, I am in tears, I feel guilty as hell …. this bloody guilt problem always seems to bite me on the arse.

There are no excuses … no “but’s” … it was my fault … I have to accept that .. hold my hands up and say … it is my fault … and it is .. and I am so angry with myself for letting people down so badly.