Brae. A gay woman's tale!

Right … email sent to motor home pointing out welding and floor rot problems and asking them to put right the damage.   I have to allow them to do this before taking things further.  I have phoned them (boss is on holiday seemingly … ) but I also have to do this in writing and I have not been calm enough to do it before today.

I have also booked Alice Alice into another garage to get a full itemised quote for the Welding that needs done and intend to contact another Motorhome dealer to get quote for repair to floor.

I cannot yet name and shame the dealer I bought her from or the MOT centre before I discover if the MOT centre is also to blame (which I know it is, but i need it confirmed!)

I am sick to death with all the hassle I have had this year … it has just been one heartbreak after another … just when things begin to turn around, something else happens that whips all the new found happiness away… and I know I am now going through a very cynical stage …

Normally, when I am low I know I can find positivity and a bit of peace somewhere … it is becoming a bit of a struggle though … and it is not a good week for my doctor to ask me to do twice daily testing of my blood pressure …  *insert about 300 swear words here*…

I am going to take my mind off things by oiling my decking … it will help me concentrate on something else … what is the betting it rains (see … told you I was cynical!)

my lovely flowers… and one tired out Sprout after a play session at The Mutt Hutt in Glenrothes… followed by an early evening play with Lily!

Sitting chilling in the summerhouse waiting on my visitors to arrive. The clouds are rolling in and I think a storm is near…I do like a good thunderstorm!

I have not calmed down that much since yesterday! Maybe I am the storm!

I gave the whole “lay of the blog thing” some thought and to be honest, bugger it … it is my blog and I will not be made feel uncomfortable by the actions of others.

I also need this blog to vent how I feel … and right now … I’m murderous.

My pride and joy Alice Alice is not the shiny, fabulous Motorhome I thought she was (fooled again!… Im making a bit of a habit of this!)

She was mot’d at the end of March, with no advisories, I bought her from a garage at the beginning of April.  She drives fine and is perfect for me in so many ways …. but when I put her in to have a solar panel put on, the guy couldnt do it as part of the floor is rotten and to make matters worse, she has been resealed underneath to hide where welding was required.

Total cost of repairs is coming out at £5k plus vat … £6k altogether.    I am livid.

I bought from a garage as I didn’t want to take the risk of buying privately … and I will not be letting this sit.

Those that know me in real life know how much I hate liars and cheats .. and I have had enough of all that shit in my life over recent months … I have no time for anymore.

I have tried to contact the garage but they are being as useful as a chocolate teapot … deliberately … and so I contacted Trading Standards.   In Scotland we have to go through Citizens Advice … and that is what I will do.

I may be an auld fat grey haired woman, but I am not scared to stand up and be counted … and by god, they will find out what fire burns in me.

Typically, my doctor wants me to do a week of testing my blood pressure twice a day… had to be this week … because it must be through the roof!

I have decided to give my blog a rest for a while.

It has been a good friend to me over the past few months… the main reason I used it was that it posted on Facebook and Twitter at the same time … but Twitter has become boring to me so I will drop out of it again.

I have a lot of things that are happening in my life right now … things that I want to keep private for now, until I am sure about a few things.

It has been a hard few months … but for me, my blog is a reminder of how life changes and no matter what, we overcome what hurts us… through time, friendship and a hug or two…

I am sometimes too open.   A blessing and a curse… and although I don’t mind people reading my blog … I think, that some, do it for the wrong reasons. So for now, Im shutting down.

We all have fears … which always come from within us.

I have a great fear of crowds … I hate being in a crowd and it makes me really stressed (and grumpy) … and I just want to make a run for it.  I need to have a wee bit of space around me …

It does hold me back from doing things at times … I don’t go to concerts now because my fear has worsened in later life … but I have decided to conquer it …

I would have loved to have gone to see Ed Sheeran … I was very kindly offered a ticket by a very kind woman but turned it down … saying I was busy … when in reality the thought of the crowds made me want to run for the hills.  I didn’t admit that to her though…

I have decided enough is enough … I know I am going to to Lfest, which will be crowded but I know I can “walk away” from the crowds there … but it will be a start …

Next time there is an act I want to see, I am going to go … I am going to put my fears and excuses behind me … it is time to forget all my worries and just do what I want to do.

I have one life … I’m going to live the rest of it the way I should have done years ago!

We have one life… a life that is ours to shape anyway we want. If only we can overcome our pride and fear.

Not everyone will understand us… not everyone will like our decisions or the way we choose to live our lives.

That doesn’t matter, they are not living our life… they are just not brave enough to live theirs.

Our pride and our fears come from inside our own self and only we have the power to set them free.

Forget your pride… face your fears… and begin to live the life you want.

There were times when I forgot that work is not the purpose of life… but love and living are!