(fb the idealist)
I am a great believer in Actions speak louder than Words. I have been fooled too many times now by people who lie through their back teeth because they are unable to face up to who they are.
I decided I need to reteach myself this lesson. I had spoken about getting help for my back, which I am doing … I spoke about getting fit and losing weight, which I am also also doing.
However, my non smoking has hit a stumbling block. I have come to realise that not only am I a stress eater but I am also a stress smoker.
As my mood turns back to a more positive and less self damning frame, I am slowly gaining control of my confidence and my emotions.
Not only am I visiting a physio regularly (from twice a week to once every three weeks now!) … but I have joined a Gym, survived my first Clubbercise Class (and 2 more booked in this week), but I have also joined Weight Watchers. I did very well at Slimming World but the locations and times didn’t really fit with me, Weight Watchers is very close to me and on a Monday night, which is normally my quietest night regarding work.
I have also cut back on work, 3 to 5 (max) funerals a week, which gives me around a 35 to 40 hour week and more free time.
The fact that I am also single means that I don’t have to try to fit my work around anyone else, no more 6am rises to write (unless I feel like it!) … and I can spread my work out over a full week, without having to consider anyone else.
I have also been taking advice from an endurance walker. She too suffered from almost the same back problems as I did (arthritis in the hip and the tightening of muscles in back and leg) … and she has given me some great tips … I used to love Hill Walking but it just got too painful (and me too grumpy!) for me to do it … perhaps there is a little hope I can get back to it!
Actions will always speak louder than words, Actions cannot lie. Guess I had better get on and see!
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