Brae. A gay woman's tale!

Think I’ve overdone it today… my hip was painful when I got up (and my hands)… the damp weather has set my arthritis off… and because it makes me limp… it sets my muscles at my lower back into spasm… I managed the class (just!)… but it was painful! I’m booked in for the 10am class tomorrow (I have a rare day off!)… so hopefully with my painkillers and hot water bottle (Sprout!)… I will be ok tomorrow… haven’t been this sore for months but if it isn’t better I will see if I can get an emergency appointment with my physio!

I have been very lucky recently, two anonymous presents … of plants and a silver bracelet and then today a yogo mat!

I had a few hours spare earlier, so went for a quick swim before I have to take a funeral later.   When I was up at the Keavil, I was chatting to some of the ladies I know from Zumba and asked about Yoga and Pilates classes … and also asked if I needed my own mat.

As we were chatting away, one of the ladies (I don’t know her name!) asked where I lived in the village and I explained about my lane …

I have just had a knock at the door … and there was this lady with a yoga mat for me! … she was given two for her birthday (ironically both the same!) and thought she would just gift one to me!  …. how kind is that!

I’m actually quite touched … but I better get my ass in gear and book a class now!  The pressure is on!

You realise what is important. You realise what you need.

No matter how much we ignore the whisper, eventually it becomes so loud we can no longer ignore it.

We can try to mask it… by always being “in pursuit of happiness”… needing the next thrill, the next temporary rush of excitement… which quickly becomes boring.

It is only when we are truly happy and accepting with ourselves, and our faults… that we begin to realise that the secret is not the thrill, but simply the peace. Peace of heart and peace of mind… and that has to come from within.

According to a 19th century legend, the Truth and the Lie meet one day. The Lie says to the Truth: “It’s a marvellous day today”! The Truth looks up to the skies and sighs, for the day was really beautiful. They spend a lot of time together, ultimately arriving beside a well. The Lie tells the Truth: “The water is very nice, let’s take a bath together!” The Truth, once again suspicious, tests the water and discovers that it indeed is very nice. They undress and start bathing. Suddenly, the Lie comes out of the water, puts on the clothes of the Truth and runs away. The furious Truth comes out of the well and runs everywhere to find the Lie and to get her clothes back. The World, seeing the Truth naked, turns its gaze away, with contempt and rage.
The poor Truth returns to the well and disappears forever, hiding therein, its shame. Since then, the Lie travels around the world, dressed as the Truth, satisfying the needs of society, because, the World, in any case, harbours no wish at all to meet the naked Truth.

… and this is true … people are scared of the truth … scared to be shown up for their lies or their inadequacies … but Karma is a wonderful thing.  It may take a while, but it happens!

.. you know the type …

I’m laughing at myself tonight… my favourite jumper and T-shirt are now so big that they have been relegated to the “slouching” drawer… I have no idea why I was so surprised that they were so big… but I ended up standing in front of the mirror with my arms outstretched and going “wow”… before thinking “twat”….

I have also upped my weights by 5 kilos up to 25…. certainly not a lot in real terms… but huge for me… I’m now rowing on maximum weight at 2000m…. and now I’m on maximum weight, I am extending the distance! I am truly loving being back In a gym again!…. I am beginning to really like this new me… peace has returned and life is bloody great!!

Why nothing was said to me … but discussed with my ex’s ex girlfriend and Desperate Dan.