Brae. A gay woman's tale!

Just back in from my second “Clubbercise” Class … and it wasn’t any easier this week!

I still get all confused with the steps and how the “young un’s” can bounce on the spot like that I have no idea!

I am easily the oldest in the class, but not the biggest, and it is great fun.  Not at all pretentious and there are a couple of other classes that I am looking at.   I can’t manage them all because of my hip and knees but I quite fancy “boogie bounce” on the small trampolines, that the trainer recommended … so I have booked myself in for that next week!… I may even give boxercise a go … but maybe in a month or two!

I have decided to exercise 3 times a week … I don’t really have time to do more than that but between Water Aerobics at Alloa and perhaps Dunfermline or Cowdenbeath and they gym studio in Inverkeithing, I should manage to fit 3 in …. I am going to make it a priority and work around the classes I want to do.

Shockingly, I have also invested in a pair of gym leggings … but there will be no pictures of that!

We all have times when we feel the weight of the world on our shoulders… and sometimes we just need to sit back and let time heal us.

However, there are those who continually live in a world of negativity through choice. You know the type, hate their jobs, unhappy with themselves and blame others for their unfulfilled lives.

I have had a few recent experiences of people like this and no matter what is said to them, they refuse to believe anything but their own negative thoughts.

To be frank, I don’t want my life to be dragged down by their attitudes and actions, I have to take care of me first. So I am.

It was an early start today for my Physio appointment at 8am … I had to get Abdur to work on my Neck and Shoulders … I have somehow managed (in my sleep!) to trap a nerve and it is really bothering me, especially the pins and needles in my arm! … to say it was painful is an understatement … but it seems to be doing the trick!

I then had to rush home to get my hair cut … and get ready to go to “Golden Girls” in Alloa … 2 hours of swimming, water aerobics and sauna … it was great fun, and I am trying to work my diary around at least 2 sessions a week … as well as trying to fit in 2 evenings of exercise …. it is proving a little difficult as I am quite busy at the moment but I shall try!

The only downside is that I am now having to work late writing Eulogies tonight … one done .. and one to go … so I had better move my ass and on with it!

Well, I’m quite pleased with myself tonight.   Last weigh in was 16th December, and although I was quite naughty over Christmas and New year, tonight I managed a maintain!

2019 is going to be my year.   A year where I concentrate on me and what I want.  I want to lose weight, I want to get fitter, I want to be able to walk the hills again… and I want to give up smoking for good!… I want to get back to the figure I had when I was in Kenya … slimmer, fitter but not skinny (I don’t like skinny!).

I have booked 2 fitness classes for this week … my diary doesn’t allow me to attend any more this week and I have set a date … February 14th … Valentines Day.   That day I will stop smoking, and I have targeted another stone off by then… as well as reaching level 8 on a fitness program I am following on my new “recumbent” bike as well as at the Gym.

I know myself well enough to know that I am a woman of my word … if I say I am going to do something, I try very hard to do it, I don’t always succeed, but at least I know I always try!

Here is to 2019 and all the new adventures it will bring!

(fb the idealist)

I am a great believer in Actions speak louder than Words.   I have been fooled too many times now by people who lie through their back teeth because they are unable to face up to who they are.

I decided I need to reteach myself this lesson.  I had spoken about getting help for my back, which I am doing … I spoke about getting fit and losing weight, which I am also also doing.

However, my non smoking has hit a stumbling block.   I have come to realise that not only am I a stress eater but I am also a stress smoker.

As my mood turns back to a more positive and less self damning frame, I am slowly gaining control of my confidence and my emotions.

Not only am I visiting a physio regularly (from twice a week to once every three weeks now!) … but I have joined a Gym, survived my first Clubbercise Class (and 2 more booked in this week), but I have also joined Weight Watchers.   I did very well at Slimming World but the locations and times didn’t really fit with me, Weight Watchers is very close to me and on a Monday night, which is normally my quietest night regarding work.

I have also cut back on work, 3 to 5 (max) funerals a week, which gives me around a 35 to 40 hour week and more free time.

The fact that I am also single means that I don’t have to try to fit my work around anyone else, no more 6am rises to write (unless I feel like it!) … and I can spread my work out over a full week, without having to consider anyone else.

I have also been taking advice from an endurance walker.   She too suffered from almost the same back problems as I did (arthritis in the hip and the tightening of muscles in back and leg) … and she has given me some great tips … I used to love Hill Walking but it just got too painful (and me too grumpy!) for me to do it … perhaps there is a little hope I can get back to it!

Actions will always speak louder than words, Actions cannot lie.   Guess I had better get on and see!